in the midst of the crowd..

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I'm still here in our house in Cavite. I missed being here, I remember when I was in elementary when we first moved here. It seems like the house was so big for us. But now I feel suffocated. Haha! Yeah, I can't imagine if we're still living here. It would totally be a mess. Hmmm.. So I was still here, reminiscing the old days but in fact I went here for an interview. And after that I got nothing to do. I'm bored again and I hate weather. I don't like like raining. I hate raining. It kinda makes me gloomy and sad. I dunno, I just feel like rain gives me sadness.

And so this morning we went to Divisoria. The ever famous Divisoria. I don't feel like going there coz' it's raining and it's so difficult to travel. I really don't like to go, I just wanted to stay inside the house and watch movie or sleep. But my father doesn't want to leave me alone in our house. Uggghhh! Why are fathers like these? So over protective. Whew! What can I do then? Even if I want to sleep all day I can't coz' I know my father will even drag me to the car! I don't have a choice. Arrrrggghhh!

What should be done if your rejected? Should you be upset? depressed? Regretful? Yeah, it's really hard when you're on this kind of situation. You couldn't turn back time. You couldn't hope for a different scenario. Being rejected is like losing from a championship game, your hope in winning the game suddenly ends. Well, who likes being rejected? No one certainly, but rejection can be treated as a trial, a challenge for you to do better the next time.

This morning I received a call from a call center company telling me that I have an interview tomorrow. Yes, tomorrow. I was so shocked coz I'm not ready really. It was just last night that I send my resume in jobstreet then this morning I already got a call. Wow, that was so fast! Im really not serious, hmmmm… well I am but not ready yet. I dunno what to do! I don't know anything about Convergys.. Whew.. Well whatever happened to my interview tomorrow I will accept it. =)

Today I just realized that you really can't have both ends of the world. When you got the best of one thing don't expect that you will also have the other. I was thinking a lot of things since I went back here at home. I'm worried about my life.. Yeah, my future, what will happen to me, what I want to happen, what I want to do, everything. Feeling of worthlessness comes in my mind everytime I think of the time and how it is wasted as the days passed without me doing nothing at all. It seems like I am stuck at one place and I can't go out because I don't know how to go out and I don't know where to go.

Time is so slow. I dunno why I am always feeling like my life was like 5 years behind of the present. If only I could make the time fast. But what am I wanting to look for in the future? Hmmm.. That's a tough question really coz neither I don't know the real answer for that.

well.. look how super dedicated in studying my classmates are.. haha.. we just got an activity awhile ago in our business policy class.. we were grouped into four and were tasked to list all the companies we know that depends on its type of organization.. those who got less points will have the lowest grade of 75 of course. and no one wants a grade of that definitely, so we combine all our brain powers to think of all the existing companies we know and listed it on the board.. and because of our urge to get the highest score, the blackboard has become full.. whew.. poor blackboard.. even the border had not escape our eyes coz we also wrote there.. if only we could write at the wall we would do so.. haha.. ^_^